New Dawn, New Day, New Life

Within a short period, I went from one of the highest/ happiest moment to one of the saddest moment in my life. In a period of a week, my life as I knew it and as I planned it came into place and fell out of place. 

In light of the new development, my heart is fixed on progressing. I have taken a conscious decision to make my life about me (this is new for me). A conscious decision to be happy, strong and confident. 

I guess there is no other option for me but to be happy and strong. What else do you do when you get a joyous news that fills you with so much happiness and in less than a week you are hit with one that takes away the happiness. 

Well here is what I did, I cried so much eventually tears stopped running, didn't eat or drink for some days to the point where remembering the previous minute was a chore. Then, it hit me, that I don't do we'll being sad and miserable. My beautiful smile is allergic to misery. So here I am, it is very hard but I will make it a daily mission to be true to myself, strong and happy.

This TERN is on a roll, the sky is no longer the limit. It is just another gate to another adventure. 

Sitting at an airport gate, heading to NC to visit my mother, I look back and realize there is just this life and I am going to live,  laugh and love till I can't no more. 

For those that know me personally, you know my mother is everything to me. I called her sobbing like a baby to share my sad news and here is her response (To those who know my mother, I am sure you can predict her response). 

      "Adunni, no need to cry. May God continue to bless you. You wil never know sorrow. There is no reason to cry, please wipe your tears, take a shower and give thanks to God for everything." 

I do know my mother and somewhere deep down I anticipated that response but I couldn't help thinking she didn't hear me due to my endless stream of tears. So again sobbing I told her what had happened (play by play). She said "Oko mi (My dear), I heard you the first time. This is not the time to cry but a time to get closer to your God, ask for forgiveness, strenght and happiness. 

I did as she said and till the end of time, I will continue to say my mother is one of a kind. She went through the same ordeal and always wished she had someone then to help when she needed it the most. I will always love you (Iya Hajarat); may your days be long in good health and wealth. 

These past couple of weeks she has been there like a mother should, like a sister should and like a friend should. She  raised me to be strong and dependent but still held on tightly when I needed her the most. 

This is why I am taking time out of no time and spending money I don't have, flying to NC, to visit her, and other family member that have always and I know will always be there for me. 

Enough of the sob story. 

Before China, I will be in NC for 5 days to return Monday night. Then I will be heading to Runaway Bay, Jamaica (long over due vacation) with one of my all-time favorite. 

So you see why I am loving it 😃

Not a lot of trips before China but I know this is the begin of many more to come. 

I will try to update before Jamaica, if not, see you before the big MOVE